Welcome to the second entry of #dssjournals aka Singer/Songwriter Journals. It’s all about me, singing in front of about 2000 people in a little area of Valencia!
The conference began on the 5th Aug, when My friends and I went there to register. I got my name tag and wrist band (which i always forgot and had to prove to the staff that i was most definitely DESTINY MALCOLM and not some random stranger that stole Destiny Malcolm’s name tag).
I was to perform at the Arts Festival on Saturday afternoon- the last day of the conference and so the night before, i went back stage to see what guitar they had for me and where i needed to be the next day. The Saturday (Sabbath) Came! I’d been so exhausted from leaving the conference late the night before, that i was basically sleep walking, which is never good for your vocals :(. By lunch time i’d woken up though..
Upon getting to the hall where sound check was held, I made my presence known and sat down twiddling my thumbs. Daniel was with me which was a massive help because sound checks in big venues never get old and I needed a familiar face. While I waited for the guitar to be available, we took pictures.. duh.
I saw a few performers and got to speak with one- Laura from Hungary. She’s a total babe, and dances like an angel. I fell in love instantly because her sound track was Ludivico Einaudi and he’s my fave pianist ever!
Before my sound check, i had a quick run through of my song whilst desperately needing the toilet! As you do, i forgot the words (to my own song!) so it took me a while to get into the frame of mind. Once i was in flow I had a good lil run through before i had to rush off again.
Finally it was my turn to sound check. If you know anything about sound checks you know they can be your biggest nightmare really. I wasn’t sure what to expect. I got called on stage, and began to strum the guitar and sing into the mic as the lady on stage adjusted things around me. I sang the chorus 1.5 times and a bit of the verse and then it was over! It lasted about 5 mins, and as for the sound… It SOUNDED AWFUL. To me anyways. The head guy reassured me that it will always sound bad from where i am standing but its perfect out there. I said okay, and that i will play as best i know how with confidence then 🙂 HA! I think that was true 😉
As i got back stage, i felt extremely overwhelmed. My head began to sting with pain, my eyes burning and knees shaking. What was going on? I didn’t ever get shaky knees before a performance!? I’m usually fine. The first person went up and as i heard the strum of his guitar i honestly thought i was going to throw up
😐 🤢 😰
I took a seat on the sofa, and closed my eyes, hoping to relax myself as i was on in about 3, 4 acts. I saw my friend from Croydon and thought yess a familiar voice/face. I went over to him and told him how nervous i was! He reassured me that i’m going to be fine and i started to believe it again.
I did my fave deep breathing exercise, to regulate my heart beat again and started some basic yoga stretches. I saw my friend from Hungary and she began stretching too which was fun. I self-talked my way into confidence and prayed a bold prayer.
“Dest, you’re great. God wouldn’t bring you here if you were not capable. Go out there and own ur stuff!!”
This was it. The moment. I got on stage and played the intro-missed my cue but that was no biggie. As the 2000 or so people began clapping OUT OF TUNE to my folk song His Name is Hope, I started to smile. I sang and played like i knew i could and nailed it!
I still feel like there could have been greater vocal moments but i mean, it was live, in front of a HUGE audience- my biggest yet. I wasn’t about to complain. Afterwards went round back to sleep, on the floor with my earphones in- i was gone! Later though I went to show my face at the stage side and met some really cool people who enjoyed my stuff.
We started talking and i gave them a card. Oh btw, they are basically models and we had a mini photo shoot 😉 Sonja & Mikael are a beautiful couple from Finland! Scroll over to get their Instagram details.
I hope you liked today’s entry & I will see you next time for another entry of Singer/Songwriter Journals.