So long as your security lies in people, places, positions & the pounds you make, discontent will haunt your life… – (paraphrased) Vivian Clark
I don’t really think I am ready to write on this yet, since it seems like I might not ever overcome it. But here I am, mainly because I said I would put something up on my blog, after a long break from writing publicly.
Currently, I am sitting on my bedroom floor, watching this one star that is outshining the rest tonight. It’s for sure twinkling and if i squint my eye a little, I can see it’s colours! I’m so in love with the night. Although it can be the most torturing time of day for my mind, it seems to hold a stillness, and a peace that nobody can take away from me.
I enjoy the way darkness closes me in, like a hug. I love nature’s sky lights, the moon and stars that keep me company as I sit here. I am fascinated with how the sunset hue melts so graciously into midnight blue, as the sky begins to glow. – @destinyjoeliviablogs
I can sit here for days, and I will most definitely make sure I create window nooks in my own home, so that everyone can appreciate this same beauty from my windows.
On Contentment; I don’t quite know what to say right now except this small truth:
I am just 25 years old. In the past year, I have had some life-changing and heartbreaking realities to deal with, and on top of that, I still can’t find a decent full-time job, that pays well enough for me to fund my lifestyle as well as giving me the freedom of time and energy to live. Lol, I feel silly even writing this, but I guess that’s why I haven’t come on here for a long time. For fear that it’s all just nothingness and nobody cares. Even if that is true, there is something mighty freeing about pressing ‘publish’ on a bunch of thoughts that haunt you, when your journal is just not enough.
It’s tricky, knowing when to push, and knowing when to stop striving. Knowing what is ‘stepping outside of your comfort zone’ and what is keeping yourself protected/safe from whatever you might be fearful of. It’s this balance that doesn’t seem to exist, that is where i’m struggling to place myself right now.
I hope one day, and each day, in this season, I can learn to love the now, learn to love and accept who God has made me to be, right now. I hope you can too!
Bless You,
Destiny x
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